Behind what?

In a world of teenagers resharing WhatsApp statuses and keeping streaks on Snapchat, there's someone on Instagram who has made their first million at 17. From stocks.

Not "daddy's money", actual market analysis, positions, exits.
Another one on X made $1k trading crypto narratives and on top of that graduated from university at 20 years...

It's not laziness per say (That's what I tell myself 😭). It's this weird feeling where days just…pass.

You wake up, do stuff, sleep. Wake up again. Weeks gone. Months gone. And you look at your life and you're like, "wait, what actually happened? What did I build? What moved?"
Nothing interesting, nothing remarkable,Just time leaving without asking.

And the worst part is you can't even explain why you feel behind.
Behind what? Behind how?? 😭 But there's no finish line. No official scoreboard.

But you feel it sha, that quiet panic.
That voice that says you should be further.
That everyone else is moving and you're just… here.

Underachieved. Inefficient. BEHIND.

Why do I have to learn forex and combine it with studying medicine? Why am I reading candlestick patterns at midnight when I supposedly have an anatomy class tomorrow?

Why does my brain refuse to just… relax and be a normal student?
Because something in me decided that the system is beatable.

That if I position correctly, move smart, I can be out before 25.

Multi-billionaire at 22 was the plan, don't laugh. 😂
I don't know how we got here....

Like at what point did "I want to be comfortable" turn into "I need to be a billionaire before my mates graduate"?
At what point did ambition start feeling like punishment?

I don't have an answer, I'm just asking... Why is the only means of escape "gaming the system?"

What happened to escaping the rat race with my degree? 😭😭

Maybe we're fine. Maybe we're not. Maybe the person that made a million at 17 is also lying in bed at night wondering if it's enough.

Or maybe they're not and we're actually behind. 😑

I really don't know, and I think that's the part that's messing with me the most, so many unanswered questions.

This is my writing for the day, thanks for your attention to the matter…